"Thi, your comments are always so cute and adorable."
- Christine, aww totally made my day! Thanks
Happy Mother’s Day!! My aunt made some heart-shaped pandan jellos <3
Went to see the SABER KITTIES with Jorge! It was so fun!!
Please forgive me, I relapsed
I am writing my tribute speech for my speech class, and tears are just streaming down my face. I am at the computer lab right now and, luckily, I am covered by a screen divider so that no one can see me. While writing this speech, I’ve managed to analyzed some parts of me. I’ve realized that the reason why I thought that I didn’t deserve Christian was because I am tainted. He was perfect. And me? I am dirty, evil, trashy, and used. However, when I met him, I’ve wanted to become a much better person and change my old ways. One year, I went to church acting very strangely. Someone asked me if I was sick and I just shrugged it off and said that I was probably stressed due to school. That was when I started feeling that I wasn’t good enough. That nothing good will ever come my way because of what I’ve done in the past. Then, things started to spiral downwards. I cut off connection with Christian and plunged into deep depression. I went back to my regular ways without noticing. I am dirty again. I’ve also developed selfishness and a lack of trust for people. I have no one to blame, but myself..my lack of self-control and hunger for success. I have damaged myself permanently physically and mentally. I did not know he loved me. If I knew, would I do this to myself? Would I have allowed myself to go back and be part of the bottom feeders of society? Would I have thrown my life away by being wasted and tainted?
Christian, I am so sorry for the things I’ve done. Thi, I am sorry for abusing you and devaluing you. I can’t take it anymore. I have to kill my old self.
Sometimes a run is all you need
Not a binge.
Not a day spent alone in your room.
Not a cancer stick.
Not an hour in front of the TV.
Not three ibuprofen.
Not searching for gratification on the internet.
Not a group hug.
Not a nap.
Not a shopping spree.
Not a Starbucks gift card.
Not sex.
Not a comforting text.
Not passing out after a night drinking.
Not even Tumblr.
Just,
a,
run.
couldn’t agree more.
I asked Mimi how she dealt with major depression.
Her answer was: RUN. around. Don’t run away.
(via weight-a-second)
Polluted
Today as I was walking to my bus stop, I saw this lady going out for a walk with her friend. She had on this mask, probably to avoid breathing in polluted air. I agree that we do have some really polluted air here (though we might not see it), but being indoors is even worse. Indoor air quality is bad because we rarely get any ventilation due to cramp apartments and we are breathing in a lot of chemicals that are from objects like electronic appliances and furnishings. Also, because the apartments here are so tight, it’s very humid which causes certain molds to form. So I don’t see why she would wear that mask outside when indoor air pollution is ten times worse. Which brings me to another point. Since I stay home so much, I am breathing in all these toxic substances which are actually causing me more problems. I just went to the health center today and the doctor had to refer me to a specialized doctor because she said my problem is too “complicated.” The medication that I have been prescribed would’ve been the same stuff she would prescribe me also. So now I have another appointment on the 29th of May. I am just hoping and praying that I will get fixed. Ugh..
"Youre an expert at stalking yet you didnt notice me. I drive right in front of your face."
- Jorge
fuck yeah!
mindlessly scrolling through pages and pages on the web.
Why has my life turned into this? I am foolish.
and I fricking love you :(
ugh -tearing my hair out- this frustrates me so much!!!!!
FOBBY
I am starting to think that I am a total FOB! I mean, I learn better when I read in English and then translate it into Vietnamese. I remember facts so much better this way. I guess it’s a win-win situation because I can practice my Vietnamese too! Okay..gonna study until 12 and then I am going to take a shower. Ugh! How come there is such little time?!
Bruised Apple
Mum: Hey, there is an apple left, why didn't you cut it?
Me: Oh, I know, I told you. I don't wanna cut it, it's gonna be bruised inside just like all the others.
Mum: How do you know?
Me: Look at it. It's all bruised on the outside.
Mum: What if it good on the inside? Don't judge things by what it appears on the outside.
Me: ... (just an apple, Mother!)
but really, don't judge just by looking at the outside. I mean I may look really tacky and messy like this apple, but once you get to know me, you'd never want any other apple again! ...err.."Thi, just because you’re at a healthy weight doesn’t mean you’re healthy."
- Nutrition professor; lol so true! I eat junk food all the time
plz feed my anorexic pig!!
